Shhhhh......

Don't tell, but right now I am blogging at work. I had to jump on here and talk about something. Currently, in the store is an interview occurring over in our little sitting area. A couple of women came in and got a couple of coffees and one of them is interviewing the other for a nanny position. It is a wildly wonderful conversation that I am trying not to listen to. A glimpse into the schedule of another family. Nap schedules and daily routines, I feel voyeuristic listening to it, but it is interesting. The women who is the nanny seems like such a positive and nurturing women, she said she has been married for 24 years, and has 3 boys.

The Nanny is talking about what she likes to do with the kids, swimming, parks, walks, library time, picnics. Envy, envy, envy.

I guess that I have been feeling a little disappointed that we have only one car lately. I am very convinced that I can handle Holly and Ryan out and about by myself, I have on numerous occasions, but just being able to do things during the day (storytimes, parks, museums, and grocery shopping) would be actually fun. I feel massive guilt about the fact that Holly and Ryan are stuck at home with me all day. They get tired of me. Just this afternoon Holly was whining and crying and tired, telling me that it was time for me to leave to go to work, and then I left and she was the picture of good behavior for Michelle all night. If there are no errands during the day, the hours stretch out so much.

Lots to think about, maybe I need to find a higher paying part time gig, or I will give in to Michelle wanting to be the stay-at-home parent. If I can defy the odds and find some job that pays more then she is being paid now (not bloody likely), maybe things will change soon.